Saturday, June 30, 2007

A Very Hard Decision

Today was just a horrible, horrible day. BT and I made the decision not to pursue this recent adoption opportunity. I know we made the right choice, but it hurts, bad. I was not prepared for all the emotions. Although it hurts .... I learned alot, and for that I am grateful, seriously.

Although I only knew her for about a week - I felt I was able to see the adoption process through the eyes of a birthmother. Although it didn't work out - I will always think of her and her bravery. I have a place for her in the corner of my heart and I will pray for her and the baby. Our agency assured me they have families they will present to her - I can only hope she will stay on board with them and let them help her through this time.

So, we're "waiting" again. And it's seems like it may never happen. I have often reminded myself, GOD IS IN CONTROL. It just seems He is so, so far away. :(

I know, I know ... KEEP THE FAITH and KEEP LOOKING UP!

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Good News Regarding My Health! :-)

I've had some concerns regarding my blood sugar.
So, I started seeing a new endocrinologist.
This week, I had a follow up with him.

I lost 9 pounds AND brought my blood pressure back down to "normal".

I credit it to all the walking BT and I have been doing.

Finally, I am on the right road! :-)

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Graduation Then and Now ....

Kindergarten Graduation 1995......

High School Graduation 2007 .......

VC's High School Graduation

My boy (nephew) graduated from high school last night! We didn't think we were going to be able to attend, as seats were limited. At the last minute, he managed a few extra tickets from friends who had extras. Just had to share in the celebration! Way to go VC! We love you so much!

Saturday, June 09, 2007

Jogging Stroller!

For exercise, BT and I walk - we strive for everyday!! When visiting my brother, I discovered how nice it is to walk with a jogging stroller, instead of a regular stroller. So, I've researched and found the BABY TREND rated very well, without getting into the high-end expensive ones. I've been keeping my eyes open for a "new to gently used". To my surprise a very nice woman contacted me to see if I was still looking! YES YES YES I was. She bought one in April - and soon after her in-laws bought them one. She didn't want to hurt their feelings, so she accepted it and sold the almost new one to me! She told me she purchased it at BABIES R US for $149.99. I went and checked it out! We offered her $75 and she accepted! I am so happy!!!

Now I just need my baby :D

Friday, June 08, 2007

It's A Boy!

The "Needle and Thread" gender selector doesn't always work! I did it on my friend just this week. It was pretty clear she was having a GIRL. At 7:48 pm tonight, she delivered a 7 lb., 14 oz. healthy baby BOY!

CONGRATULATIONS! We're so proud for you!!!!!!

Sunday, June 03, 2007

"Wait" by Russell Kelfer

Big hugs and thanks to Kathy and Trace who posted this poem on their blogs!

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried.
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said, "Child, you must wait!"
"'Wait?', you say, wait!" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By FAITH I have asked, and am claiming your Word.

"My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to WAIT?
I'm needing a 'yes,' a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

"And Lord, you promised that if we believe
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!"

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, "You must wait."
So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting. . .for what?"

He seemed then to kneel and His eyes wept with mine,
And he tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.
All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want--but, you wouldn't know ME.

"You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint;
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint;
You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;
You'd not know the joy of resting in me
When darkness and silence were all you could see.

"You'd never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of my Spirit descends like a dove;
You'd know that I give and I save. . .(for a start),
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of my heart.

"The glow of my comfort late into the night.
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that 'My grace is sufficient for thee.'
Yes, your dreams for your loved ones overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss! if I lost what I'm doing in you!

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
And though oft may my answers seem terribly late,
My wisest of answers is still but to WAIT."

~Author Russell Kelfer ~

No Reply...

After I got off the phone with R on Monday - I sent her an e-mail letting her know it was nice talking to her and I looked forward to talking to her again and hopefully meeting soon. She has not replied. Wednesday, she had a doctor appt and would find out whether she is having a boy or a girl. As promised, I called to see how she made out. She did not return my call. I tried again on Friday morning. She answered the phone but asked if she could call me back. I said "Of course, whenever it is good for you". She did not call me back. I believe it's yet another dead end.

1 Boy, 2 Girls?

Have you wondered how many pregnancies and whether it will be a girl or a boy?

Let the needle tell you.

Here is a method that may surprise you.

What to do:

Thread a sewing needle and knot it (so the needle hangs about 6-10 inches from the knot).

Hold your left hand out, palm down.

Hold the knot in your right hand with the forefinger and thumb only.

Holding your left hand still, swing the needle so the needle hits the inside curve of your thumb (where the thumb meets the hand) three times.

Then turn your left hand over and move the right hand over the left, holding the needle just an inch or so above the palm of the left hand.

Hold both hands still and let the needle do the work.

The needle will begin to move:
Circles = girls
Lines = boys

It will stop moving completely in between each pregnancy.

Turn off any fans and make sure circulating air is not affecting the reading. ENJOY!

IF there's any truth behind this - and IF it works for adoptions. . we'll have 1 boy, followed by 3 girls! Anyone else care to give it a whirl?