Pep's Thoughtful Spot

I just can't sleep. Everything is so surreal.

I am amazed. Completely and totally amazed at the excitement, love and support from those around me.

The words, "This is the call you've been waiting for" echo through my brain over and over.

It was 4:49 PM, I was in my office at work, preparing a proposal for a Universal Pre-K program.
The phone rang, PRIVATE showed up on Caller ID. Normally, I do not answers the phone at that time of day, but Gail had run up to the restroom. When I saw PRIVATE CALLER, I had a fleeting thought it could be Linda. But, quite honestly, for the past 4 years, my heart would skip a beat with every PRIVATE CALLER that came up!

I wish I could remember more of our conversation. Most of it is a blur, as I was crying and working hard to keep my composure. One other thing I remember rather clearly was Linda telling me our birthmother wishes. She wanted him to go to a couple who has waited a long, long time and had no other children!! Oh, and she told me she hadn't seen him yet, but the buzz around the agency was that he is tiny and beautiful!

We hung up the phone and I wept and wept and wept. I wanted so bad to be with Brian right then, but he was home sleeping. I called his cell. I called home. After several attempts it was clear he was not waking up. The reason I did not just head home was because I didn't feel I could concentrate on driving. Anyhow, I finally decided I had to tell! When I called my Mom she offered to walk to our house and walk Brian up! Poor guy thought something was on fire.
Once he realized "the fire" was actually news of a baby boy, he came over to my office for what little details I knew.

We came home. The phones rang like crazy! Thanks to very excited family members and my Facebook status, word spread quick.

We have so much to do! Thank God for my baby sister whose done this twice already. She's already shopped for clothes. Last night she took all the baby laundry to my Mom's to wash and sort. Today she and her husband are coming over to finish up the laundry and give me a chance to work on other areas of the house. I know it sounds wierd that they are doing the rest of the nursery and not us, but I just can't think. I go in there and all I can do is stare. Seriously, I am so grateful.

Oh, we're much closer to deciding on his name. Actually, I believe it's official, but not really OFFICIAL until I tell Linda. So, we will wait on announcing his name.

So, my dear blog friends, on Tuesday morning at 7 AM, we will leave to pick up our son. We have a 2 1/2 - 3 hour drive each way, so it will make for a long, long day. But what a joyful day that will be!

I am a Mom, finally a MOM!!!!!!
I can say that already, right?